I had a moment a few days ago. My to do list was increasing even as our bank balance was decreasing. I had a ton to do and was completely preoccupied thinking about the lack of finances.
Kelsey was picking up on my tension…20 years of marriage make that sort of mind meld second nature, besides, I had that “My head’s gonna ‘splode!” look on my face. Yet, being a good wife, she asked “Are you ok?”
“No….I have a million things to do – all of them good – and not one of them will directly affect our bottom line.”
I don’t remember the exact wording of her response, but the gist of it was this. “That’s what we do….”.
Deuteronomy 18:1 The Levitical priests, the whole tribe of Levi, will have no portion or inheritance with Israel.
In His infinite wisdom, God has placed us in a missionary context, within a missionary field that few understand. Sending people and funds to Africa makes sense to Americans. Sending people to stand before the Lord in a 24/7 prayer room makes less sense, even when that prayer room is giving birth to ministries faster than we can update the website.
Much comes from that dorky little remodeled grocery store of a room – but the greatest thing that happens there gets little press. Around the clock, there is a spot in Kansas City where God can incline His ear and hear the sound He longs to hear….human beings calling Him who He is.
And so we dedicate chunks of our time to that pursuit – and to other endeavors that please His heart, knowing that though the priests of old had no portion of inheritance with Israel, they were cared for in the ways God made for them…and we trust that He makes a way for us.
About eight years ago, I was profoundly impacted by a book by secular philosopher Lewis Hyde entitled The Gift.
Hyde proposes a notion that often, a gift often has a way of ’rounding a corner….’ – we give something to someone, who in turn gives it or something to someone else, who does the same…the process goes on to take place far beyond the sight of the original gift giver, but comes back to them in a direct way. This is not a ‘karma for dummies’ but a secular writer’s attempt to describe the transcendent, tangible reality of giving – a reality that has ramifications to those who pour out what little they have to an unseen God.
And so we stay in this room. And we give. And everything we need is provided, just around the corner, just out of sight, but directly from the One we give to. We don’t see it coming – but it comes.
Such is the economy of the priesthood.
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